Tuesday, January 1, 2013

knitting anew

My thumb was wounded this holiday season with the amount of knitting I undertook. The good Dr needed to apply "boo-boo medicine" & a bandage nightly for the days around Christmas. I am still in the midst of finishing items on my gift list. One gift I have not finished was the blanket which I wrapped up so many hopes & dreams in last year. Ah last year...you were something weren't you? I began in darkest despair, in deepest depression, in a pain I never believed would be healed. My good Dr has indeed been a blessing - not who or what cured or healed me, but there is no way I would have been receptive to his presence in my Life had I not been on the road to recovery. The project I was knitting as the old transitioned into the new was connected tot he blanket of oranges...but it is only a simple cap, a trifle, nothing of any great significance.It was going to be a little token of friendship, of forgiveness, of Love which has never died. It's still on the needles, should be bound off and gifted by this time tomorrow.

Much like a hat knitted in the round, the shift between years was oddly "seamless." We managed to step into the circle we had sidestepped out of this exact day last year. The universe has the greatest sense of humour, I tell you. And I will also tell you - it will reward it's Faithful children, sigh.

Ah words -- you & I are beginning anew this age old dance which has always been ours to share. I am also gathering the threads of my Life, of my Love and finding the right pattern for their weight, their fibres, their gauge, what they can tolerate, what they will produce of wound together, if k2tog is beautiful I am about to discover what k3tog, yo, and wrap etc will produce. When my new tapestry begins to take solid form I will do everything I can to maintain the structure, to reinforce the foundation.

Last year, at this moment I was certain I had been most Lost, had fallen into some non reality & was trapped there. I shouted out my refusal to belief in the world around me -- I violently rejected reality. I cried until I couldn't breathe, I subsisted on purple kale and water. i refused to go on in that world, in the "life" I was sure was a lie. This year, at this moment, i am reveling in the beauty of reality of Love, or Faith and in the Universe's delivery of dreams fulfilled at long last.

I am exquisitely happy and I am not afraid of losing any of it. Dropped stitches are not lost stitches, this will not fray or unravel. The fibres I am choosing to work with are solid, and sure. Watch this creation become more of a Reality than imaginable.

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Day 2 - w/sardines

2 cups kale
1 cup spinach
5 radishes & 1/2 turnip = 1 cup
1 large carrot
1/2 cup cucumber
3.75 ounces sardines
12 ounces iced green tea

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Day 1 of serious Wahl's Way of Eating

Break Fasting with

2 cups of raw spinach
1 cup of raw kale
1 cup of raw turnip
1 large carrot + 3 radishes = 1 cup
1 cup cucumber
12 ounces blueberry pomegranate juice


biggest damned salad I ever ate

Sunday, February 26, 2012

be not lost

soft, your dawn smile celebrated our possibilities

happily reposing in the colourful whispers of sunshine
believing, knowing, faith; alleviated my broken comfort

your hands danced as magic wishes upon fire
velvet dreams, liquid ferocity sang through me

breezes in my heart remember an eternity of wonder

Monday, January 23, 2012

reminder -- to self & others

Giving Power Away
No one can know you as well as you know yourself. Don't give your power away to some outside authority, even if it is a medical or spiritual practitioner. It's alright to get a different perspective or a professional point of view. But remember, it's theirs and not the deep knowing that comes from being connected to your body and soul. If you find yourself being belittled, made to feel wrong, punished or ostracized for how you feel, then it might be time to move beyond that relationship.
When you find yourself holding on to a "master" for direction or advice, it's time to start asking yourself if the master has become your source of guidance, or if he or she is pointing you to yourself to hear your true, inner guidance system. No one has the blueprint for your life of joy. It is only by keeping your independence, freedom, and personality that you will ever be fully expressed.
How in the past-or now-have you given your power away to another individual?

an unfinished song in the darkness

so long ago and far away
    it was only yesterday

i knew you & you knew me
    we were how we're supposed to be

now i am lost and all alone
      & you're hiding in your home

safe in your familiar tomb
     i'm just an empty womb

~ written on the trolley

Saturday, January 21, 2012

labyrinth language

i am lost in a darkness, wandering, led only by a thin thread wound thru the labyrinth...
my needles are my newest swords
like the Dragon Hunter, i find they come in most handy in times of deepest danger
the fiery colours of my fibres will bring me to the Light soon enough